I had an Awesome Meeting with my Adviser and…

…we are on the same page and I am hella juiced, because I know that my ability to connect with her means that I will do what I need to do to get everything done.

I am working on an interdiscplinary paper on Black Women’s sexuality and I was on her shit list, two weeks ago. I failed to turn in something at a time that I agreed and rather than say something I was silent, until I collected and created the materials. I won’t be doing that again. I am scared of NARY human being except for her. Trust. Her and God. Lol.

So yesterday, I got my annotations to her, albiet Tuesday morning and NOT Monday Night (progress not perfection) and she blew my byrd.

Basically she helped me to understand Kara Keeling’s ideas of Sensory Motor and how when we view visual images our senses are activated (touch, taste, smell, sight, sound) and then we respond through moving our bodies, and that leaves an imprint on us.

I  understand that bodies have histories and narratives of their own. But I didn’t understand what Keeling was saying until yesterday.

Second, she used Pam Grier as an example. My adviser is from the Caribbean, and she used Pam Grier’s presence in the L Word to show how cliche’s, and sensory motory experiences work together. For instance, in the L Word Grier wasn’t just Kat, there were traces of Foxy Brown, the protector in her character, given the ways in which she was a protector of that community.
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At one point in our conversation my adviser got hella juiced and animated. And I was like, I still don’t get this sensory motor stuff. So she asked me, “Why am I getting so excited talking about Pam Grier?” And I responded, oh, because it reminds you of good time from the past. She responded precisely. This is what Keeling is getting at, how film images trigger sensory motor response and the implication’s that this has for the Black female body.

That is the first way she blew my byrd. The second was I was reading Jaqueline Bobo’s  Black Women as Cultural Readers. In this book, Bobo interviews groups of Black women after they have watched The Color Purple and Waiting to Exhale. My adviser noted that if I notice during the readings that different authors are talking about the same text, then I need to note that. In this case it is Julie Dash’s Daughters of the Dust. So, I mentioned to my adviser that Bobo found that Black women distinguised between Walker’s book and Speilberg’s film and she concluded that Black women negotiate images that are presented to them, that they are not passive recipients.

Well, she blew my byrd when she said that her students last year were not interested in reading Ntozake Shange’s choreo poem, but they really wanted to see the film and she said that contrasted directly with Bobo’s finding. She then went on to say that these are the kinds of connects that she wants me to make when I am reading. That she saw this, and that she wants me to see this is both inspiring and challenging. I don’t know if I can do it, but I am going to try. Besides I am learning how to play chess, so I can pretty much do anything lol.

You have a cool adviser in school?

Why or why not?

Why is it that some people MAKE you want to work hard for them?

On Energy y Energy Conduits

Yesterday I was speaking to a White man neuroscientist, and he said three things that kind of blew me.

First, he said that our brains use up most of the nutrients that we derive from our food. I had always known that low income mommas had babies with birth defects but this totally lays it out for me. The brain needs the complex carbs, plain and simple or it won’t function right.

Second he said that when I am sitting, reading and writing for three or four hours, the intense mental activity means neurons are firing which generates heat. Say word?

Third he said that the brain uses up 10-20% of the bodies total energy.

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Tonight I learned that brain cells use twice as much energy as other cells in the body, because, peep game, they don’t hold on to (sugar) glucose. Because of this they need to constantly be receiving a supply glucose.

Brain is an energy conduit like allcity. Creeepay.

Whats your favorite snack for energy?

Did you know that the brain was this fancy?

Frying Pan into the Fire….

Image Courtesy Allison Achauer

Well.

Today, I graded papers, made a mid term spread sheet and emailed it on time. Phew.

Spoke to my college roommate (first person I EVAR shared a room with) and told her I had NO idea how she went to graduate school for a Ph.D at 22. This shit is hard enough as old lady rap. It was nice to hear from her. She is defending in May, and she is going to send me her dissertation introduction and wants to collaborate on a project in the future. Win.

Today I saw the storify for Moya + Lex’s panel  Blackgirlsarefromthefuture x Octavia Butler at CESA, which I was suppose to be in Cali for. The storify had me blown. I was happy to see people be so interested in something we were talking about nearly a year ago. The room was packed. As (young)scholars we often work in isolation so to share the work and have it be appreciated goes hella far.

This evening, I played an awesome game of chess, where I realize I am now thinking two steps ahead AND I used my Rook and my Bishop together. The thing about chess is that its ALL process and I like that. Being trained to be a historian…I have to be into process. Process and context is really what it all comes down to.

Tonight I had a moment of serendipty where I walked out and SD walked in and I kept it moving, based on his facial expression, much to his chagrin, he he he.

Then I walked into the spot and there was Aquemini.

From the frying pan into the fire.

We ain’t spoke. And thats cool. Life happens, but the issue is that I reached out Thursday, and he didn’t respond and then I got an explanation tonight.

Black girls are from the future so they know they are a choice and not an option.

My feelings were hurt and rather than say that, I stayed for minute, spoke with my girl, used the rest room, didn’t see him and bounced.

My mind went to “What would the rook do?”

You and I both know that matters of the heart are not no daggumit chessboard, even though chess principles can be useful in terms of thinking things through.
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I left him a message, and left the door cracked.

Courtbear, my dating coach said two things. First, she said, I be expecting people to do things the way I would do it. And she is right about that, and I am working on it. Second, she said people have to learn how to treat you, that it isn’t innate. I am not going to lie, this process is work honey. But the pay off is that  a Lovebear doesn’t to guess about what allcity likes.

Honestly though blood, I had to process that shit with the quickness, because I have hella work to do tomorrow, and even though I am certainly entitled to feeling my feelings, the outcome isn’t mine.

I realized that I fucked up when I wasn’t honest. I was neither vulnerable nor fearless and it shows.

What ever he did or how HE responded wasn’t any of my business. Looking back there really wasn’t space to have that conversation and you KNOW I am a space bear.

Resolved. I just needed to say my piece, and keep that thang clean. If I don’t keep the path clean then I won’t receive my gifts. AND I love the gifts, especially the human ones.

Energy Conduit.

Speaking to @afrolicious tonight she was like “Dang Gina, you went from furstration to acceptance just like that” and commented that it was probably because I am air sign. I was like how does that figure? She was like “You all  process quicker.”

Two things helped me to go from being angry to acceptance to forgiveness. First it was remembering that accepting people where they are and asking questions makes my life way easier.  That plus, no assumptions. No manipulation. Second was remembering that other peoples actions are none of my business. Nunya. That I need to have the courage to say how I feel and be honest. And so long as I do that God will take are of the rest. Boom.

I also have hella work to do tomorrow and I know that that work must get done and  if  I needed to dance tomorrow, then so be it. When I dance I am free. Boom.

What do you do to feel free?

When was the last time you went from the Frying Pan into the Fire?

Why is it that people who make your heart go thump thump, make your life extra hard?

Aquemini’s Helium Balloon

The last time I chilled with Aquemini, Green Eyes said being around the two of us is like being in a helium balloon and boy was she right.

After I left him yesterday I felt like I had Coltrane withdrawals, what every that fees like. However, it was nice to be able to just be myself around someone.

He did what he does, which his hold court and entertain, but in the midst of all of that nothing gets past him. Its bugged to be out with someone who see’s as much as I do.

#Intensemuch?

He kept saying, being out with you #allcity, is like being in a movie.

This is coming from a man who picked me up and walked out into oncoming traffic on 14th and U. o.O

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We are both similar in that we recognize the spirits in people, we just do it differently. He does so by speaking, to nearly everyone. I do it by recognizing that everyone has a right to be who they are. And intervening when it appears that it is not being recognized.

No se sponge bob. The outcome ain’t mine, but I would be lying if I didn’t want to run and hide or make a demand sometimes.

Oh, speaking of Sometimes, why I learn that that the first Bilal album was his top three, this is of course after I told him I woke up with Bilal’s Reminisce on my byrd two weeks ago.

Hot air balloons be fun, but when you go up, you got’s to come back down.

I need to be careful what I ask for, because I just might get it.

I told that man…

two weeks ago that I was done, and getting off the ride.

Of all the  people I met around this time last year, I am on speaking terms with everyone. We cool, if we see each other we say wassup. If they call I pick up. If I call them they call I pick up. But…this one appears to thrive on the contention.

SD doesn’t know what shit or get off the pot means, but I said it and I meant it.

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I was leaving a spot on Thursday and I walked past him and said nothing, which is what I said was gone go down, depending on how I felt. Crossing the street I looked at my phone and saw a text that said “lol this is dumb.” Now I know this was not rook steez at all, (Rooks be all OVER the board and they keep the king in check) , but I walked back and got within two inches of his face and said, its not dumb, you just pissed because you are not in control of this moment. Flirting much. Yes. Serious Much. Yes. I will admit it.

Some other words were exchanged, but it comes down to me saying what I mean. It’s been a year. Decide or move on.

#Wingsup.