All of you who know me KNOW I LOVE my brother. On December 28th 2003 my brother was allmost Sean Bell.

I am suspiciously close to my brother.

He is largely responsible for my b-girl dom as he bought me Marly Marl, MC Lyte and LL Cool J tapes when I was a young buck.

He is the only person that I will joke with about OUR crazy a$$ed momma with
and not catch feelings. I have not written about Sean Bell because he reminded me of December 28th 2003.
However when I saw this, I knew I had to put something down.

December 27th 2003, I was home in Cali, with my new engagement ring.

Blinging and Happy.

My brother, my neice and I went to the movies at the Metreon in Frisco to see Bad Santa.

6am. The next morning. My momma phone rings.

The police, had broken a flash light over my brothers head.

They beat him while he was handcuffed to a fence in an alley.

Apparently he was in East Oakland, and he ran.

You never run from the Oakland Police unless you are sure you are going to get away for true.

Im like. What? We were just at the movies. They trippin’ for real.

Trust.

We go to Highland Hospital at 6:20am. The sky was turning pinkish orange. The sun was rising. They wouldn’t let us see him.

If I knew then what I knew now I would have called Jim Zimora at the Chronicle, somebody at the Tribune, Chris Thompson at the Express.

I imagined that the media folks who would be interested in hearing about how the police beath the teeth out my brother, opened his head up witha flash light and THEN decided that they would not let us see him.

Only recently have I been able to look back and see how I went through every day with my brother, even though I was 2500 miles away. How, to a certain extent I checked out of my relationship with BBC and how it affected our engagement. Sh*t, thats life though, right?

From Jan 2004-May 2004:

• I was on the phone w/ John Burris’s office, trying to find out if they would take his case.
• I wrote internal affairs, and requested an investigation.
• I wrote the Feds, asking for them to investigate a civil rights violation.
• I was a writing a$$ED cow!
• I eventually found a wonderful organization in San Francisco called the Ella Baker Center for Justice. If you or your loved one finds your self in a po po related pinch, contact them. They are a godsend.

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I was sitting in my aunties living room in San Jose.

I remember it being a warm late May morning.

She bought be a poppiseed bagel and coffee.

I came to those words in the police report.

I thought he had a gun.

I thought he had a gun.

I thought he had a gun.

When I heard about Sean Bell. Those 5 words came to mind.

Five simple, innocous, yet powerful words. 5 words that serve as a defense to, what
would normally be considered murder.

All I could think about was the fact that my brother is a softpaw.

That he was handcuffed to a fence.

Fortunately, years have passed and

He has recovered and is doing well.

I am grateful that he lived through it.

He very well could have been Sean Bell.

My heart and spirit goes out to the Bell family.

What I will allways remember most about December 28th is that sensation of
“This sh*t can’t be happening because I JUST SAW HIM’.

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That was a personal M.Dot post.

We all have these stories, I would imagine.

I guess it was just time for me to share mine.
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Even Meylssa Ford Drives a Honda Accord
-Game “You Wont Get Far”

We always hear about rappers f*cking video vixens and women in general. We see video vixens in rap videos and on the cover of King, Smooth and Black Men. Little black and brown girls want to grow up to be video vixens.

But we never hear from the vixens themselves.

At least not until Karrine Stephans wrote her book.

The Madonna Whore Syndrome
To a certain extent, the message being sent is that is theat the vixens are like children, they should be seen and not heard. Which brings me to Carmens book.

A couple of weeks ago I reading Eskay’s post where he called Carmen a slore (slut + whore) and a spooge receptacle, I began to wonder:

a. If Carmen is a “slore” then what does that make Jay, Nas and AI?
b. If they are not worthy of any fancy derogative names then the inference is that n*ggas can f*ck but women can’t. However, if men are f*cking, and presumably hetero, then are are f*cking women. Talk about circular reasoning.
c. A major component of rap music is about getting at and snatching someone elses girl. d. And that it is worth noting that having sex with Nas, Jay Z and AI constitutes a new version of promiscuity that is worthy of a new adjective.
e. What would a rap video be without the The Vixens? f. That it is interesting that same kind of venom isn’t reserved for n*ggas that sell crack and THEN rap about it.

Get off my D*ck and tell ya B*tch to Come Here
-Eazy E.

a. Its clear that it is acceptable for black and brown women to parade around in videos, a$$ cheeks glisten’, looking available, sexy and expendable.
b. It is acceptable for Nelly to run tip drills.
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Yo honey-dips, summertime, fine Jheri drippin
See you on Pickens with a bunch of chickens how you’re clickin
I catch shootin strong notes as we got close
She rocked rope, honey throat smellin like Impulse
Your whole shell baby’s wicked like Nimrod
Caught me like a fresh-water scrod, or may I not be God
Ice Cream- Ghost Face

d. Which brings me to pimps. Its ironic that this a is a culture that values pimps, men who make money off of women who sell sex. But reserves the right to be derisive towards women who makes HER OWN money of her sexual exploits.
e. This is Especially deep in light of the fact that a substantial component of hip hop is men talking ABOUT THEIR sexual exploits.
Carmen is pretty. She grown. She can mash with whom ever she wants. While it reasonable to expect that that people “will talk”. It is important to note when the name calling starts, and whether the men are criticized along the same lines as the women.
Why does it constitute sloredom that she mashed with the above mentioned?

Sex and the Big Picture
Sex has allays been a currency in Western culture and it arguably allays will be. That this notion arises in hip hop gives us an opportunity to talk about it within the context of a frame work that we are familiar with: Hip Hop.

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That one has been on my mind for a couple of weeks.

Watchall’ think?

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Life has me in a mental head lock right now. I threw BL a suprise B-day dinner.

Shout out to All My Sag’s.

Jonezy, when is your B-day party?!?!?!?!??!

Im wrestling w/ finals. I made candied yams for the first time.

OJ acting up. Kramer Actin up.

I am thinking of getting a Ph.D. in Human Sexuality/Therapy, cuz t-giving brought out the family drama and the sex drama for n*ggas.

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Deep Hunh. Jay Z performed at BAM on Saturday.

I miss yall. Where yall been? Wachu think of the new Clipse.

I listen to it EVERY DAY.

I got some posts in my brain, that Im trying to maintain, till I get some free moments to holler.

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I ain’t fagot my peeps.

I will see yall w/ some fly social commentary by the end of the week.

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You all know that I have a love.hate.love.love. relationship with Oakland.

I read last week that the A’s were moving to Fremont.

That. Wasn’t THAT bad.

You see the A’s for me is like McDonalds to other people. For example many people eat at McDonalds because they have an emotional connection to it. It reminds them of fun times they had w/ their mommas or daddies when they were younger.

Thats what the A’s represents to me. Fun times. Youthfulness. A Wide Blue Oakland Sky.

Not only are they moving, but they may but they may be changing their name.

Nothing is sacred.

***Inner voice comes on in my head***
Inner voice: Mdot.!!
What? Don’t you see I am typing in my blog.
Yes I see you are, but you know this about economics and not about sentimental value. You know better than to mix emotions with real estate transations girl!?!?!?!! I know, I know. But I frequently talk about the Town on my blog and I just wanted to let people know what was going down.
You know that the A’s were not going to stay in Oakland. Besides. The Giants play in Jersey and the Jets play in Queens and they are both NY teams.
But the A’s represent something for people to rally around and feel united about. NY has hella different teams and sports for people to rally around. There you go being sentimental again. It is an economic issue.
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Smart @ss!
I know you are just trying to get me to see the big picture, I feels you. Its just deep that they can move and change they name and become a whole new team in front of our eyes.
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I never really knew why people tripped so hard off the Dodgers leaving BK.

Now I understand. As a lil kid going to school in East Oakland, we were rewarded with a trip to the see the A’s for earning good grades on our report cards.

It not just the A’s thats flipping the script.

Many of our cultural institutions are changing.

1. CBGB’s is closed largely because all real estate is a potential condo in Millionaire City.(Manhattan)
2. Tower Records Closed. Tower was not apart of a larger conglomerate. Only corporations that are subsidiaries are larger companies are equipped to survive in 21st century New Media economy. Tower was important to Indie cats b/c they would stock JUST about anything and would stay open latee. In fact, Tower is largely responsible for my B-Girl-dom as I would visit the store on Durant in Berkely on the late night after having some LaVals pizza (which is closed too). Just perusing the HH section. Reading the latest Rap Sheet or Source. Just chilling.
   
3. Robert Christgau got fired from the Village Voice. How are you gonna take one the freshest white dudes that teaches me sh*t out hip hop out the game.
   

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It is up to us to invest in our insitutions. No one else will do it for us. And if we don’t. We cannot blame anyone else but ourselves for their demise.

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I saw Borat last night.

The over the top humor was different.

The fact that he opened it up with jokes about his sister being the town ho’ made me think,” I’m progressive, but I may end up walking outta this one.”

• He goes into the deep south and exposes Classic Americana Racism. In fact he did such a good job of it that he is being sued for misprepresenting himself to the folks that he interviewed for the mockumentary.
• The comedic timing of the jokes was on point.
• I don’t know how to feel about the Jewish Jokes in the begining. Apparently he has been given a pass in Big Media, because he, Sasha Cohen, is Jewish. So implicity he is allowed to make fun of Jewish folks.
• I guess that’s like black people and the word n*gga. If you are OF it, then you can use it. At least that is one theory.

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We Fligh High by Jim Jones sounds is like a Harlem Zombie song. It is so hypnotic. I hear it in my head when I doing the most average sh*t
I became obsessed w/ finding out the name of the song sampled at the begining.

I found it and that ish is hot.

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Beat Street Records is ’bout to close.

Peep this vid on YouTube.

That whole Fulton Mall area bout to be a Spring Street. Please believe.

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Houston Gunshop owner tells fools to get gats and buck at “The Katrinians”. I.Have.Nothing.Else.To.Say.About.That.

GIBSON: Jim, look at this. We’ve got some facts and figures about Katrina evacuees. They are suspects or victims in over 20 percent of Houston crimes this year. The number of people applying for gun permits has risen 25 percent and of the 250,000 evacuees who came to Houston, about 120,000 remain. Jim, is there something specific about the Katrina evacuees that makes you so worried or is it just crime in general and they are getting stuck with the blame?

PRUETT: It’s another rock in the pond, John. What’s happening is we had a criminal problem before there were other people preying on us and now this is just even more and so it’s not specifically about the evacuees. I think about 15 percent of our population here in Houston is made up of law-abiding citizens who came here with their kids, their families, who wanted to rebuild their life. They settled in Houston, Texas, and they remain here. They are Houstonians now. It’s a beautiful thing because it’s a wonderful city and we welcome them. However, whenever they get on TV and they are quoted as saying when the FEMA money runs out, then we’re going to turn to crime, then this is something we got to pay attention to. And the best way to do it is to be armed.

GIBSON: Jim, what kind of gun do you carry?

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Jay Z the Brand.

This article affirms the fact that ‘ol boy is ’bout to give the winter some.

Carter is a curious figure. A former drug dealer from New York, he has a mercurial talent for rhymes (which he never writes down, but carries in his head) – even being described as “America’s urban Shakespeare”. Some of his best linguistic play refers back to events in his own life, with his signature languid delivery making even the most complicated rhymes seem easy. In “Kingdom Come”, the title track from the new album, he makes a neat, knowing nod to his return to rap after life in the Def Jam boardroom, likening the switch to Superman’s telephone-box transformation – “I take off the blazer, loosen up the tie, step inside the booth, Superman is alive.”

As a wordsmith, Jay-Z elicits such high regard that in a Rolling Stone profile published last year, even British novelist Zadie Smith got in on the act, praising his ability to produce “‘ecstatic’ hip-hop, the kind of urban-lifestyle fantasies that are so joyful they feel like gospel”. She went on: “But the greater part of him, for me, is his strong streak of Tupac-like truth- telling” – referring to rap’s most famous fallen hero, Tupac Shakur – “[with] raps that aren’t about the dream life of urban African- Americans but concern their real, lived experiences.”