Choose Ya’Self


Catfish, check.
Macaroni and cheese, check.
Saut?ed teriyaki broccoli, check.

Last week it was sesame ginger salmon,
buttery asparagus and roasted garlic potatoes.

Flavorful right?
Today I was cooking and I thought to myself
you know what, Imma’ marry me. I know it’s weird.
But we are a little familiar with each other around
here, especially after last weeks post.
You know howErykah sings,
I choose me?
In a way, I think thats what those meals remind me of.

I ran into some homies today, they have a brunch crew.
One of them, Melodia, was like, you going? I was like,
nah, got some blackened catfish and mac and
cheese to tend to.



She then mentioned that “The Boys” some other
brunch cats, might show up to my kitceh if they learned
that catfish and mac and cheese are on the menu. I

thought to myself, unless a dude is trying to
change my income tax filing
status, he best not
show up when I’m burning in the kitchen.



She noticed that I seemed serious. She asked what
it was about. I responded saying that the
cooking is
a sign of being high functioning.
She nodded, in agreement.

I learned something about myself last week.
With a mix of snacks and a full stomach, I can produce
some workable work.

Strawberry’s. Scones. Peerless coffee.

Last week. I wrote something everyday.
Everyday.
I don’t know if I can sustain it. I try not to worry about
that.

Speaking of cooking, Filthy is off visiting his
family and I miss him.

Last night we had one of those conversations where he
reflected on how it feels to have his work respected by
his family, how it feels to see that he would like to have
a conversation with his yet to be born son similar to
the one that he had with his dad yesterday

He mentioned how Manning Marable criticized Malcolm for
leaving his family in Queens to go Detroit and
deliver the Ballot or the Bullet,
the day after he,
Betty and the girls were bombed out of their family home,

He mentioned how being committed to progress and change
is often seen as being secondary to “the movement”.

My thinking has awlays been “what more progressive
thing can you do than sustain your family?”

I was impressed, but I was mum.

A man chooses, when and where he commits, to whom
and for how long. I just listened.

Speaking of commitments, SJ‘s birthday was yesterday.
Just like that. I missed him. Not like I wanted to call or
anything but he was my homie. Feel me? And its a wrap.
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Ain’t hindsight some sh-t?

Last week’s writing hustle was type impressive and it
has carried into the weekend. I woke up Monday through
Thursday last week, and wrote at least 30 minutes before
the gig.

I got to the spot a night, I wrote. I remember reading that someone
encountered Jay Elec with the same outfit they saw him
wearing a few days ago, they inferred that Jay hadn’t been to sleep.

I am not at that point, yet. But I do know that my schedule,
for the last several days has had writing at the center piece.
It feels like every morning has a deliberate purpose.

However, last night, I couldn’t get anything out. It irked me.
Conversation with Filthy was on my bird a bit. I took a shower.
Still nothing.

So I just started looking for old Nas songs. I know that a good mix
will loosen it the writing up. I Discovered a fly joint with
Nas and Mobb DeepLive N*gga Rap“. Its dark and creepy,
just like how I like my Mobb music to be. I have added some
Slum Village
which makes me think about Jay Dee and how
we have to do what we need because we don’t know when
a day will be the last. “UBlack Maybe“, “Driving me Wild
and “Start the Show” by Common to the mix.

I got a page and a half in. E-mailed to Filthy for critique.

Went to sleep.

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How do you deal with people dropping by?

Hindsight show you anything lately?

Discipline requires you to constantly be willing
to
exit from conversations and invitations to
return to your
work.
Have you done so recently?

How did it turn out?

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Did Saul Williams and KRS Drink the Kool Aid?

As artist we all think about taking the gig that
would pay some bills, but f-ck with our
ability to sleep at night.

This is what I thought of when I hear Saul
Williams say,

“Saul isn’t making a Nike Commercial
Nike is Making a Saul Commercial”

Say word?

This isn’t a conflict that is foreign to me.
I think about writing erotic Negro fiction approximately
once a day to pay bills. Are you kidding me? Those
books are so what the street wants**. You
show me a subway train at rush hour I will
show you 5 black women reading “Around
the Way Girl Part IV”.

According to this excerpt from Grand Good,
KRS’s standard for selling out is whether he
changes himself for the corporation:

KRS-ONE: Today, artists like myself or Chuck D or Talib Kweli hold a degree of credibility that?s attracting companies like Red Bull, Cadillac, or Nike. Executives at these companies are our fans. And they are really sick of the state of music. So what they?ve done is spend $250,000 of their own money, in the case of Nike, to create a song with Kanye West, Nas, Rakim, and KRS ONE. We don?t rap about the shoes because they don?t want us talking about that. They just want us to create a song they can play on their website. This same active ingredient is present in the popular erectile dysfunction treatment drug, but kamagra cialis tadalafil canada oral jelly has lot of regular customers and is demand because of the growing urbanization. Products from this exporter of safed musli capsules have a legacy of generic tadalafil online thousands of years of established quality and safety. A purchase levitra diet that is higher in fats can hinder the functioning of a gallbladder, but it may bring about many common gallbladder symptoms. There are no proven side effects and it is totally understood that some of us might be falling short on our ‘core’ duties. cialis discounts Authenticity is the new business model and these companies need a product that?s not destroyed by an artist?s shady image.

What is interesting about both of their statements is that
both reflect a lack of understanding about corporations and
capitalism.

First, capitalism, by its very nature co-opts anything
that attempts to subvert it. Meaning, IF you come at it,
it is going to figure out how to make money off
of you. Beastie, right?

Second, a companies only constituents are its
shareholders, and its shareholders alone. Every financial
move made is at furtherance of improving corporate share
value.

F-ck what ‘chu heard.

I gasped at hearing Saul say,

” Mc Donalds is making veggie burgers/
Walmart is going green”

I have watch him from afar as he has toiled,
made art, published books, cd’s and just did him.
I have always admired his chutzpah.

To me, he was a renegade rebel who said f-ck it.

Now, “Nike is making a Saul commercial”.

If you change for cake, so be it. But acting like you
are doing it because a multinational corporation is bending
to your will is an insult to us, the fans.

A corporation may bend its will towards it’s
to is its investors, and sometimes they have no
say so ie, exorbitant CEO pay.

Think about Saul and KRS’s response in contrast
to the Clipse or any D’boys resolve.

“I need to make this money so I can eat”
“I’m just trying to feed my daughter” ~Biggie

Atleast they are honest enough acknowledge the capitalist
motives behind their behavior and not ATTEMPT to purport
that they are “helping the culture”.

Corporations don’t care about our music, how n*ggerish
we are or where an emcees next meal is coming from.
Corporations ONLY care about their bottom line.
Both links via Grandgood.


**has started trying to write said fiction.

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TC has a fly assed review of the new AZ over @ TSS.

Let?s talk about underdogs for a second. Like the secondary candidates for a job position or the small college vying for respect in the NCAA tournament with just as much heart to compete with their rivals that dominate the popular vote. It?s always an uphill battle when the odds are against you and you?re always having to show n? prove. For nearly a decade and a half, lyrical connoisseur Anthony Cruz a.k.a. AZ, has carried the tag of the overlooked MC without merit – even after touching platinum with the failed supergroup The Firm and his own debut album Doe Or Die.

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WDYU has I LOVE the 90’s going hawrd.
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KRS.
AZ.
Saul and corporations.
All in the same post.

Life es bueno.

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F-ck Them Critics Jay, We Still Believe

When I saw the reaction at Parlour stating that Jay
Electronica
needed an intervention after his show in
NYC last week
I was like “What kinda facts are those?”
According to that logic, when Jay Electronica f*cks
up a show, he needs an Erykah intervention. So, what

if his show was brilliant? Should they then get married?

How about we let the man hone his craft?

After I read that post I reminded Rafi of OH Word of the Living
with Baduizm post (by Sasha) that made my @ss itch.

Here is how the conversation went down.
me: dude. Jay and E.

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Rafi: lol
i’m on my way out the door
3:11 PM me: k.
Rafi: the jay electronica saga is funny
me: hahaha
I KNOOOOW.
I always think about the post you did on
Baduizm…’bout to tie it back to the Vixens
Rafi: unless he literally appeared at the gates
to Jerusalem and welcomed us all to the
promised land
me: hahaha
Rafi: unless he did that how would he have
lived up to the hype?
me: I know.


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A couple of weeks ago, Madlib asked Kevin Nottingham to remove
the sample set posted on his blog. Ivan @ HHIR speaks on the
issue saying,

Our ol’ pal Kevin Nottingham of This Is Hip Hop hit me up today regarding a message he received by none other than Madlib. The message was written in response to Kevin’s recent release of his (totally awesome) ‘Madvillain – Madvillainy’ sample set. Simply put: Madlib wanted the set to be taken down from Kev’s site, download link and all. Kevin politely obliged.

Now here’s the question and matter at hand (which Kevin asked his readers as well): Is the act of compiling samples used on albums harmful to Hip-Hop? Our (Kev and I) reasoning and motivation is, quite simply, that we’re just trying to learn about the artform (of sampling in particular) and spread it forth for everyone who shares our interests in this great music, culture and lifestyle we call Hip-Hop. Personally, I get a rush seeking out samples from some of my favorite emcees. But Madlib’s response to this was the following: “Pages like this on the internet are no help at all to people like Doom, Madlib, and those that work with them.”

Essentially, Kevin and I are simply collecting the information and music, and compiling them into one enveloped and enjoyable package for y’all to dig in to and have fun with.

Here is the thing. While Ivan and crew has good intentions,
Madlib
does have point. Dooms, Libs and Count Bass D’s
music are sample intense.
Label awareness of their usage
of said samples could severely impact their ability
make
music without having to pay for egregious sample clearances.

This is an issue that has been present in Hip Hop since
the Biz Markie affair. I would like to make another distinction
for Ivan. There is a difference between
between downloading
searching out, finding and downloading a couple of original
songs that serve as the source material for our favorite
hip hip songs. It is something completely different to
have site to go to where the entire sample set.

A substantial barrier has been removed.

The entire DNA of the album has been revealed and them
in the crates cats hate that sh-t.

While the action of posting was done out of reverence,
artists are sensitive people who don’t like
folks knowing
what goes into the albums secret sauce.

Ahhhhh, the hairy issues of sample clearances.

Madlib may argue that posting the sample sets increases the
likelihood of sample related lawsuits. My question is doesn’t the
risk of lawsuit come with the territory? That that is something
risk that he takes just by putting out the music?

Feel like I am back in Copyright.

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Who is in the right here? Madlib? Ivan?

Why these cats hella pressed with Jay? Can
he live? Show me a loudmouth critic and I will show
you a bitter artist.

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P*ssy is a Commodity


Last week, Beauty in Baltimore asked me, Whats the
difference between a woman who charges [for sex]
and a woman who goes home with dudes from the
club from free?
While I had a response, I knew that by
the nature of comments that followed that the very
question deserved its own post.

The intersection of sex and commerce has always been
present here on Model Minority. It has come up in the Duke
Rape case, the R-Kellychild molestation case, the discussion
of Karrine Stephens book and Spitzergate.

I have always been interested in labor and compensation,
so this is right up my alley. However, while had some ideas,
I didn’t have the language to concisely describe
the
difference between a prostitute and a woman who goes
home with a
guy from the club because she is trying to get
some rent money.

So, I had to reach out to Birkhold to get some clarity on the
distinction.

As a result of my conversation with him, I have narrowed down
three fundamental distinctions between the two groups.

The first distinction is that for a prostitute, her vagina is
a commodity. The john is literally paying for what is in
between her legs. The prostitute-John relationship turns
on the fact that she has been bought.

This notion underscores the fact that paying for sex
with a prostituteis renting a womans sexual labor. Sex
becomes labor for sell.

The second distinction is that the prostitute cannot say no.
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her body that will impact her ability to work. Whereas, the
lady going home with a dude, or even me, the hungry grad
student with a penchant for Thai can always say no. We
have leverage that a prostitute never has.

Many times we haven’t made up our mind on what we are
going to do. If I am sitting in a Tribeca Thai spot with a banker,
I can always decide if I do or do not want to go back to his
loft. The prostitute has no such option.

The third distinction is that, conceivably, neither me, nor
the club lady would be eating or going home with someone
that we didn’t find reasonably attractive in the first place.
The prostitute, has no say in choosing whether he is attractive
or not, the sex-labor has been purchased. Her attraction
to him is irrelevant.

So there it is, short and sweet, Sex-Labor 101.

You convinced or am I blowing hot air?
Does the distinction resonate?
What do you think of the idea of Sex as Labor?

Moving Further from Malcom on the 40th Anniversary of Martin Luther King jr.’s Death

Within the last few months, I have been moving further from
Malcolm
and closer to Martin.

Malcolm naturally appealed to me. For us, in the early 90’s, witnessing
the vestiges of the 80’s crack era, the notion of violence as a
method of obtaining and retaining power made sense.

In that era,
once caring fathers became crack zombies. My own dad
transformed in front of our very eyes. Pre-Crack, he was a man
who on Thursday broiled steaks, baked potatoes, and

dropped live lobsters in boiling hot water (much to my
curiosity and horror) for our weekly pre-Cosby Show meal.

Post-Crack, he turned into someone who disappeared
on pay day Friday’s taking the rent money, the light money,
the money from the safe at his job and pretty much anything
else that wasn’t nailed down to feed his jones.

My brother was impacted as well. Pre-crack here was the guy
who bought me my first Mantronix, LL Cool J and Beastie Boys
tapes and took me on long adventurous bike rides that ended
with getting two scoops of mint chip ice cream. Post-Crack
he, like so many Black teenagers became baby faced D
boys with some big old guns.

Oh, the guns. They were everywhere. As was murder.

I think that the fact that everyone had a gun, Malcolm strapped
with the gat at the at the door, appealed to me.

Crack made the threat of violence hypernormal.

Yet, it was few months ago, around December 2007 that something
began to change in me.

I told Birkhold that I been chatting with Barry Michael Cooper (BMC),
who wrote The Village Voice piece that New Jack City was
based on.

Birkhold suggested that I get the original piece, which I did,
and that was the beginning of seeing both Malcolm and Martin
in a new light.

In the piece BMC made the connection between the violence
occurring in the hood in ’88 to the race riots and state sanctioned
national guard murders in the ‘hood circa ’66, ’67 and ’68.

The rationale is that you can’t have peace in crack laced
’88 with so much blood shed in during the race riots of
’66, ’67, ’68.

The fate of one precludes the fate of the other.

The seeds of violence were sewn.

We have been taught that Martin is soft
and that Malcolm was the truth. This distinction deserves
closer look. In many ways Martin had the heart of 2Pac,
the patience of Ghandi and the strategic ability of Sojourner
Truth.

Before his death he was transforming in front of our
very eyes and his commitment to social justice entailed
that we transform
along with him.

At the time of his death, Dr. King was getting ready to
protest in Washington for the purposes of abolishing
the Black White and Brown poverty in America.

King called his crusade the Poor People’s Campaign. He planned to march on Washington with a multiracial army of poor people who would build shantytowns at the Lincoln Memorial — and paralyze the nation’s capital if they had to.

The campaign’s goal: force the federal government to withdraw funding for the Vietnam War and commit instead to abolishing poverty.

The only thing more brave than the blood pumping in Malcolm’s heart
when he was at the door with the gat, was the air moving in Martins
lungs when he said,

“It didn’t cost the nation one penny to integrate lunch counters … but now we are dealing with issues that cannot be solved without the nation spending billions of dollars and undergoing a radical redistribution of economic power,” King said during a trip to Mississippi in February 1968.


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The Poor People’s Campaign has faded from historical memory. It remains the most overlooked part of King’s legacy, Wilkins said.

It remains in the shadows because King rewrote the traditional civil rights script, Wilkins said. As long as he fed Americans images of bigoted Southern sheriffs clubbing demonstrators, people could remain comfortable. But the Poor People’s Campaign gave Americans a new cast of villains: themselves. Americans didn’t want to look at the face of poverty, but King was going to force them, he said.

So on the anniversary of his death, I am reflective on his legacy
and our future as well. I debated on writing this post and making
it as personal as it is.

Then I came across an account by Ron Klain
in the Times. RFK was in Indiana the day King was murdered and
was scheduled to speak to a large group of Black folks
.

Rejecting the advice of many around him, Kennedy continued toward the inner-city playground where he was to give his speech, undeterred by a police warning that they could not provide him with protection if things got out of control.

There, a raucous, happy crowd ? unaware of the tragedy in Memphis ? waited for the candidate to arrive. Kennedy informed the gathering of King?s death, and an audible wail of agony rose from the crowd. (You can see a home movie of the dramatic event by clicking here.) He then delivered, extemporaneously, one of the great speeches in American history. Some of the words from that speech are etched near Robert Kennedy?s grave site at Arlington National Cemetery; they still speak to us today:

What we need in the United States is not division; what we need in the United States is not hatred; what we need in the United States is not violence and lawlessness, but is love, and wisdom, and compassion toward one another, and a feeling of justice toward those who still suffer within our country, whether they be white or whether they be black.

Riots, fires and violence broke out in more than 100 cities in the United States that night ? but not in Indianapolis.


When I read that. I knew this post had to be personal or I would
risk not resonating with you.

Today, in furtherance of Kings Dream I am going to write
a letter to the DA in Alabama
who has decided to imprison pregnant
women who are addicted meth, rather than treat them like the addicts
they are and provide them with drug rehabilitation, intervention
and support.

What, if anything, are you going to do in furtherance of MLK’s Dream?
What would you like to do if you could?
What would you like to see?
I look forward to your thoughts and reactions to this
rather vulnerable, super in the gristle of my life post.