I finally laid it down with SD on Friday. He saw me and wanted to sip and I said sure. But we needed to talk first.
I basically said listen, I need to get off this ride. I adore you, we have a lot in common but you come at me like you want to have your foot wedging a door open. You see, last time I saw him, he didn’t speak, then rolled up a few minutes later taumbout, yeah I just wanted to say hello. I was like the fuck? In his defense we did just start back speaking, but I’m like #comeoneson. Be vulnerable. Or stop.
I know me/us, its only a matter of time before something out of pocket jumps off. #History. Uh. No. I said “I am a gift. We all are. The difference is that some of us see it and walk with that understanding.”
He listened then said his work comes first. Boom. I am grown. I can accept that. I’m on that Bleek Gilliam. My work comes first too, most the time. So I get it. In fact, I have 4 fifteen hour days ahead of me this week.
At the same time, I ain’t gonna be bopping around thrusting flirts at people I got history with. Energy is powerful and it moves, honey.
I light weight can’t believe I actually said it.
Why? Because the liminal space is comfortable, sorta. Or maybe that’s not it, it is familiar. Ok. #boom. I just knew that I needed to take responsibility for my role.
So I said, I need to make sure I am comfortable and that I feel safe, so if I see you, I may or may not speak. Honestly, after that. I felt free. And it makes sense because the next day, at brunch, I ran into #Aquemini.
Keep the path clean.
The Original. #Aquemini.
And peep game, when I asked @afrolicious on Friday, what was going in the spiritual dimension of Wisconsin, she mentioned that well, things happen in that dimension first then we see them on the human level. I know I just looked at the phone and was like she be taking this #blackgirlsarefromthefuture ‘ish to a whole other level. However. I was suspect until….Saturday confirmed for me that she was right when I ran into the original #Aquemini at brunch…….you don’t know about my biggie wars. In fact it was quite pleasurable. Talk about becoming Janie…
Do you believe that when one door closes another one opens?
Why people stay in your system until you ready to let them go?
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